Walking on eggshells

Today is Monday. That in itself has its downfalls. Not only is it Monday, but it's also March 22nd. Today rent is due. I took my last rent check to my landlord this morning. She wasn't home so I left her a message to call me about it being our last month here. I wanna cry. In the next 4 weeks I have to move in with the MIL. I know I keep saying it's gonna be worth it in the end. We're gonna have a house of our own in due time....that doesn't change the fact that I wanna whine like a little girl. I DONT WANNA! I want to find a way to make it work without moving in with her. I want money to grow on trees and the lottery so we can do it without this dreaded step. I'm being unrealistic though I realize. I'm going to miss out on my "freedoms" while living with her. Such as being able to sleep in and not be judged for it. Taking a day off from laundry b/c I can. Being able come and go as I please without feeling like I'm walking on eggshells. I know everyone has their problems. Mine are pretty trivial to some...but this is a huge problem for me. No more privacy. If I wanna walk to the fridge in the middle of the night butt ass naked...I won't be able to. Not that you all needed to know I do that, but still its my point. This is going to be a long ordeal. I'm going to do everything in my power to make my stay there pleasant and as quick as possible. I'm going to keep a calendar and mark off days. I have no desire to stay past 18 months and hope to be out sooner. But I have to be realistic too. 12 months to save and 6 months to build. I can do it. I also don't want to ruin the relationship I have with my MIL. We're great friends and I don't want to jeopardize that. Becky is another major issue. I can always avoid her b/c she doesn't come to my house unless invited. She's going to be at her mothers very often....oh joy. Luckily my mom and dad have moved to Blue Mound and I imagine I will be there frequently........lol. So after the move I will have this blog to keep me sane. I plan to vent about my frustrations frequently from now on. 30 days left in the house of our own......I'm going to enjoy every min of it!